Dear SO!
Hy ... I can't bring myself to write anything. I have tried my best, backspacing every time. Maybe it is that we just met some hours ago or that you are someone I wasn't even sure exists. Or maybe it is something else that I can't pinpoint. Pen on a paper is the easiest place that can be for me but here I am .. clueless. This love is (ughhhhhhhh) so powerful.
After my last relationship, I had myself convinced that Jaun Elia was right. All girls leave. My rational mind sometimes persuades me onto this point even now, to not believe you and to take lessons from my past experiences. Of course like all good hypocrites, I've also decided not to think the same about female members of my own kin! After meeting you, however, I think I might be wrong. I may be generalizing one bad experience with an incompatible person over the whole female community. Might this be taken as my reaction more than my mistake, but the amount of love that I spilt in my last relationship, and the way it ended, would have been enough to convince just about anybody that girls are parasites & boys are all womanizers.
That stuff which you have been doing for the last 5 months speaks otherwise. You did not do all the things that I said but the way you stopped me from doing things we shouldn't do, is what makes me think twice about you.
The number of times I did you wrongs and still, the way you care for my emotions instead of showing your reactions, is something that only I used to do. It is stupid to sacrifice one's own emotions for their partner's emotional well-being, I learnt this the hard way. But since I have been benefiting from your stupidity, love seems easy. You understand my frustration after a holdup and sadness after a bad day. It's comforting. Only this my mother knew that I get agitated by minute mishaps, and now you do too. Today when he said we aren't allowed inside my own university, you were calming me down instead of getting worried and frustrated. And just so emphatically too that I'd say you were overthinking at that time, dude. I wasn't that angry. You walked and walked while suffering from breathlessness. As these words erupt from the nib of my pen, you are in bed with aches. But ... all the way here you came for a guy that is me.
This might just be two teens doing their teeny tiny love thing and exaggerating it. This might be the complete opposite of teeny, tiny or exaggerations. Who knows I might regret this in my life that I wasted 10 hours!? Who knows this might become the favourite story to my grandkids!? Nothing is permanent and nothing is impossible.
I give up the fear of losing you and I give in to the honour of having you. Bye.
Your
SO
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