July was good in terms of finances. In terms of relations, this was just like before. On and off with “her” but particularly ... I noticed how I am becoming more open with my mom now. Specially about relationships and mental health things which only boys tell boys usually. On weekends when I am free in the evenings, I go for a walk, she’s the one on call and we talk for a good 40ish minutes. Shes becoming my friend even though she doesn’t approve of my relationships at all. So my mom keeps praying “Ya Allah mere bete ko hdayt de” and also listening to me. What else can she do! I find this action of her hopeless and cute. According to Colonel Muhammad Khan in Bajang Amad, “Vo sch hi kya jo maa k dil ko dukha de”. True. For him; because for me, truth is the superior force, in-front of mom, dad or God himself. I won’t lie to keep her happy. Anyways, now she is my friend.
7 months have passed. This year I made my first ever set of resolutions about stuff that I was going to do. Some of these were:
Read 30 books
Start a business
Reach 1000 subscribers on YouTube
Go at-least into the interview process for one job
And many others...
Now, some of these goals are done and dusted. Some are not done yet but I am hoping to touch them by the end of the year. Others are located however, in the next years of my life. I will post a full review for 7 months and attach the link here.
Another thing which I have been pondering on for a good part of this month was that I do write these lessons but never revisit them myself. Humans are forgetful. Am I thus actually even benefiting from these? On one side, writing the past is a recollection of goodies and badies in itself and one can safely argue that if done everyday, periodically every month and every six month AND every year, that’s enough living in the past. That’s enough evaluation. The counter-argument, fueled with the thought lest I might be wasting my time by doing everything mentioned above without reaping any actual benefits from it, is that I might be missing the lessons I learned and wrote for a previous month, while going out and about in my day to day life for the next month.
One way is to revisit the previous month only, every month and see if I did the same mistakes this month or not? This limits “living in the past” but also enables me to collect patterns that are bad and that I might be forming into my personality. (See an example listed below).
One other thing that I learned this month is that you are not your boss’s best-employee even if he is very humble or whatever. He can be who you like but at the same time, at job, just be obedient. Maintain the corporate culture’s (malicious) no-personal-life, utter-slavery-like-respect for the boss. Don’t stop saying Sir, or Ma’am even if they specifically ask you to, because they never mean it. Don’t do any other non-humble thing even if they seem very accepting to humbleness and want to feel ‘part of the team’. They are not. And this I guess is the fault of corporate culture itself. They have been a part of this slavery for a time much longer than when I joined. Infection spreads even to the most orderly.
I gave some amount of money to one “Kareem” at the start of this month when I thought I am giving it to another guy by the same name. When I realized this, well, the damage was done. He took it on July 4th and probably will return it in the next life, that too if I am lucky. Lesson: ALWAYS SEE WHO THE MESSAGE ASKING MONEY IS FROM, IN FULL NAME.
From the daily (nightly) evaluations, I noticed a bad pattern that was forming in myself. It was the practice of ‘overloading’ my day with work. At times, I had even tried to cram 12 hours of work and 5 hours of sleep in a day’s schedule. The results were failure for the major part of a week. Now, I have tried to come down a little bit and do 10 hours of work (8 Job and 2 Personal) and sleep for 7 hours.
Dollar is up and so is BTC going up. I hope the later never stops and the former fucking stops for the sake of me and Pakistan respectively. July was 7/10: Average. Prime Average. See you!
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